Stress-ful week!
Freak! Never been so stressed since I started working…. Tonnes of projects and responsibilties recently. really felt like bursting into tears on thursday… sigh…
Haiz. I seriously don’t know if the problem lies with me or somewhere else… I only started working for less than a year. They gave me the responsibility to be in charge for one of the event. I was informed that I am the rep of my group. Had to attend a meeting when someone who briefed me on the stuff. He did not tell me specifically that I am supposed to brief my group members about the specific procedures and things. To my horror, the night before the event, when I went back to the staff room after a long day of walking to see patients, I realised that members of other groups are busy practising stuff with their team members. And I have not bloody hell done anything. then my senior comes along and ask me why things are not done, then I had to rush to do things and that to minimise the damage done…. felt like i have dragged the whole group down. Sigh…..
From this incident, I can conclude that either I assume too much things and tend to assume that I don’t have to do anything OR the people who are more senior than me are quite bad at giving directions to juniors… they tend to assume that we know the procedures (since they have been there working for years, and the protocols of things they do hardly change), and expect u to do things without being told to. I am seriously confused if I am 1. being too lazy, 2. being slack in my work, 3. too ignorant of things, 4. don’t think through things thoroughly. And whenever I try to clarfiy things by asking seeming stupid questions, the more senior staff appears to be irritated by my repetitive/dumb qns. Life is seriously a dilemma. How can one appear to be familiar/competent with things, while not bothering seniors with “stupid” qns…. Sigh… sigh…. sigh… Haiz. i think I am just bloody upset that instructions provided are mostly unclear, and I’m the one who gets into trouble when it happens…
Sorry. just ventilating… I know tis entry is kinda fragmented and if it doesnt make sense, just forget abt it….hahha..
